So today was weird but good I guess. I went to class like always and somehow miraculously passed my quiz even though I always "forget" to study and the day went on as normal.
That is until I came home and decided to do laundry...actually it wasn't a decision... I had to do laundry! I was all out of underwear (I had even worn the weird mesh ones I bought on a whim with Kera one time during High School) and I needed clean socks as well (I have been wearing two layers because I find this keeps me warm and then I don't have to risk wearing too many layers on top and arrive at class sweating like a pig... even though it's 40 degrees outside!). So I gather up all my laundry and start to divide it into loads and I am ready to go. I head over to the laundry room with a skip in my step because the prospect of clean clothes began to excite me (you can only endure dirty jeans for so long).
I load up the machines like always, pour the detergent into the wash, pick my cycle, pay, and head back to my apartment. After a sufficient amount of time had passed I returned to transfer my six loads over to the dryers. As I'm approaching the laundry room, I see a slightly attractive young man headed the same way as well ( I knew this because he had a laundry basket in his hand). I opened the door for him because his hands were full and we both entered and went on our merry way. I transferred the laundry over to the dryers on the east side of the facility. However I needed one more dryer for my last load so I turned the corner to use one of the west sided dryers (wow I make it sound like they're in a gang).
As I examine the "west-side" dryers I happen to...no rather I unfortunately stepped right into a massive puddle on the ground...my first reaction was to scream. But I couldn't! That slightly attractive boy was on the other side of the room behind the wall! If he heard me then he'd know in a few seconds that I was just some crazy red-head and I would no longer be that "mysterious girl from the laundry room"....(a persona I gladly had accepted from the moment I opened the door for him). So what did I do? I stood in the puddle...visualizing the embarrassment soon to come my way. Fortunately "slightly attractive boy" (as we will continue to call him), finished loading up his clothes in the wash and left! A sigh of relief passed through me!
Now I needed to dry off my feet and sandals so I wouldn't "slosh" back to my apartment. I decided to head to the bathroom in the rec room, that was just adjacent to the laundry facilities. As I walked into the rec room I noticed something was different...the carpet was gone! (Nothing gets passed me)
I noticed an elderly couple sitting at the pool table eating lunch (no doubt the ones who ripped the carpet up... I'm sure of it!), I said hello and asked if I could use the bathroom and the man said yes. So in I went to the small single girl's restroom to clean off the "mystery" puddle I had stepped in earlier. After I had wiped down and convinced myself that it probably wasn't acid, pee, or any other gross liquid on my legs I reached for the handle. Just then I thought, "Well I can't leave now they'll think I didn't even use the bathroom or that I'm a fast "pee-er" but that I didn't flush. So I waited 60 more seconds (yes I counted) and I flushed the toilet. Then I had to wash my hands because if they didn't hear the faucet running after a flush they'd think that I don't wash my hands! Gross! So I washed my hands and dried them and then left the bathroom.
Why do we do stupid stuff like this? Like we assume there is a certain allotted time given to each gender on how long they should be in the bathroom and that they can only use it to relieve themselves. In all reality, I don't know about you but most of the time when I excuse myself to the restroom it's not because I have to pee. Usually I want to make sure my makeup hasn't for some strange reason, melted off my face and exposed the albino side of me! I also like to go into the restroom to adjust my clothes...*cough* BRA *cough*....yeah I said it! NO ONE wants to see you doing that in public! Life is just weird. Okay I'm done with this restroom tangent...onto the rest of the story.
After my bathroom excursion I went back to my apartment and started cleaning the kitchen (I was in one of those moods...I figured if my underwear was gonna be clean then my bowls and spoons might as well be too). After starting a load in the dishwasher and stacking the plates I returned to the laundry room to retrieve my clothes from the dryer.
As I turned the corner to head over to the "west-side" dryer to get my freshly dried towels and sheets, I noticed "slightly attractive boy" was there. He was adding more money to his laundry card at the machine (I don't know the name of the machine, but it's not relevant). He looked up and recognized me (as that "mysterious girl from the laundry room" I'm sure!). He smiled and said hi and turned around to get clothes out of the dryers himself. As he did this, ironically, "slightly attractive boy" stepped right into the puddle! LOL (Even though it's funny I still can't believe no one had cleaned it up yet!)
What makes this moment even better, is that he realized it in a split second what had happened as soon as the "solution" had touched his leg. But he thought that I didn't noticed so he too tried to play it off like nothing had happened and started to stare out the window...as if lost in thought about dryer sheets or something. :) hahaha lol!!! It was awesome!!! I left and concluded that life is crazy and funny sometimes. The end.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Food for Thought
So today was an interesting day...actually it really wasn't but I figure this would capture your attention.
So lately I have been doing a lot of thinking (what's new right?) and I discovered that the reason why I loved the performing arts and that whole "sha-bang" if you will, is because it allowed me my cathartic release of emotion.
If anyone knows me they know that I tend to hold everything in and build all my emotions up into this really small bottle and then someone will do or say the wrong thing and I'll just explode with this horrific, dramatic melt down of tears, spit and yelling all rolled into one...not a pretty picture.
When I watch movies, plays or perform on stage, I envelope myself in the character that I'm playing or the character that I can relate to the most and I get lost in the dynamics of that person or feeling. When the character has their cathartic release of emotion and their arc comes full circle, the story resolves... then I think subconsciously...my problem that I'm experiencing at the moment feels as if it has resolved right along with the character. Even though the problem hasn't fixed itself, the purge of emotion I feel with the player has helped release some of the tension in that emotional bottle I hold inside.
Thinking about this has made me realize that this is not a bad thing but I think it's time that I naturally purge my emotions rather than live through the stories of others.
As like any girl I watch those "chick flicks" and relive a fairy tale/love story over and over again every time I watch. And when I view the "action" films I release my rage and anger. Why do we do this in society? Or maybe it's just me...so then why do I do this? I think it's my way of coping with change, anger, sadness, love, happiness...etc. This is why I love movies. I had thought that the reason why I'm a big movie buff, is simply because I just enjoy watching them. Don't get me wrong, I do but another part of it is that I love them because I use them as tools to learn more about myself. Weird I know, but theatre and acting in general is a reflection of real life. That's why the entertainment industry will never go bankrupt because life will never go bankrupt.
I promise I'm not always this analytical and deep in thought. These were just some feelings I approached today after watching yet another movie. :) Anyways moral of the story (because the performer in me is telling me this post needs to have a resolution), I think that movies and the arts have been a blessing in my life, as a kind of training wheel(s) to help me learn more about myself. Since I will no longer be studying this area for a degree I hope that I will be able to take the training wheels off, even just for a bit and learn more about myself.
I will always love movies. I will always love the performing arts. I will always use them for my own cathartic release...but perhaps now I can discover new outlets for this bottle of emotion...perhaps this blog :) Anyways just some food for thought.
So lately I have been doing a lot of thinking (what's new right?) and I discovered that the reason why I loved the performing arts and that whole "sha-bang" if you will, is because it allowed me my cathartic release of emotion.
If anyone knows me they know that I tend to hold everything in and build all my emotions up into this really small bottle and then someone will do or say the wrong thing and I'll just explode with this horrific, dramatic melt down of tears, spit and yelling all rolled into one...not a pretty picture.
When I watch movies, plays or perform on stage, I envelope myself in the character that I'm playing or the character that I can relate to the most and I get lost in the dynamics of that person or feeling. When the character has their cathartic release of emotion and their arc comes full circle, the story resolves... then I think subconsciously...my problem that I'm experiencing at the moment feels as if it has resolved right along with the character. Even though the problem hasn't fixed itself, the purge of emotion I feel with the player has helped release some of the tension in that emotional bottle I hold inside.
Thinking about this has made me realize that this is not a bad thing but I think it's time that I naturally purge my emotions rather than live through the stories of others.
As like any girl I watch those "chick flicks" and relive a fairy tale/love story over and over again every time I watch. And when I view the "action" films I release my rage and anger. Why do we do this in society? Or maybe it's just me...so then why do I do this? I think it's my way of coping with change, anger, sadness, love, happiness...etc. This is why I love movies. I had thought that the reason why I'm a big movie buff, is simply because I just enjoy watching them. Don't get me wrong, I do but another part of it is that I love them because I use them as tools to learn more about myself. Weird I know, but theatre and acting in general is a reflection of real life. That's why the entertainment industry will never go bankrupt because life will never go bankrupt.
I promise I'm not always this analytical and deep in thought. These were just some feelings I approached today after watching yet another movie. :) Anyways moral of the story (because the performer in me is telling me this post needs to have a resolution), I think that movies and the arts have been a blessing in my life, as a kind of training wheel(s) to help me learn more about myself. Since I will no longer be studying this area for a degree I hope that I will be able to take the training wheels off, even just for a bit and learn more about myself.
I will always love movies. I will always love the performing arts. I will always use them for my own cathartic release...but perhaps now I can discover new outlets for this bottle of emotion...perhaps this blog :) Anyways just some food for thought.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Life is crazy!
So it's been almost a year since I last posted something on my blog. At the persistence of friends and family I have decided to update everyone on what's been going on in my life. I am now attending BYU. Weird I know! I told myself I'd never go here but alas it has happened and I'm glad it did. I love Provo and all the people here! It's great. Walking around campus is an interesting experience everyday. But I love it!!! Classes are extremely intense and more difficult than anything I've ever had to endure. But I guess it's worth it.
Recently I have changed my major...if you are gasping out of pure shock...your reaction is understandable. It seems like I've always known what I've wanted to do and what my goals were in life but now that's changed. I can't afford to live on a dream, I have to acquire a degree and profession that will be marketable and worth something after I graduate. That is why I have decided to just minor in Theatre rather than major in it. My new major......are you ready?....Print Journalism! LOL I don't know why I find that funny but it came out of no where to me and was a bit of a shock. So next semester I will be taking my pre-requisites for the Communications Major and then I will emphasize in Print Journalism. I think I will also double minor in Editing. It's crazy how life throws you curve balls and you either have to plant your feet and swing and hope you don't foul or get out of the way because there is no pause button to stop that ball from heading your way. It's gonna happen and after a very difficult few months of not only dodging the ball, but getting hit by it, I've decided to swing! So this is me swinging away.
I thought I had learned so much going to EAC and that I was ready for the real world....NOT! These last six months have been a whirlwind of emotion and growth for me. First, living in Alaska for three months and then to move up to Provo right away was very difficult to me. I got homesick really easily and wished that I could rewind back to the good ole days in Joe Town where life was slow-paced and things made sense. But now I know that was a blessing. Now I can stand on my own feet. Sometimes you have to put yourself in difficult, new, and sometimes awkward situations to find out more about yourself. And boy have I learned a lot!
Anyways that's the reader's digest recap of the last few months of my life. Not too intriguing, but it's my life and swinging away :) I might strike out, but at least I tried.
Recently I have changed my major...if you are gasping out of pure shock...your reaction is understandable. It seems like I've always known what I've wanted to do and what my goals were in life but now that's changed. I can't afford to live on a dream, I have to acquire a degree and profession that will be marketable and worth something after I graduate. That is why I have decided to just minor in Theatre rather than major in it. My new major......are you ready?....Print Journalism! LOL I don't know why I find that funny but it came out of no where to me and was a bit of a shock. So next semester I will be taking my pre-requisites for the Communications Major and then I will emphasize in Print Journalism. I think I will also double minor in Editing. It's crazy how life throws you curve balls and you either have to plant your feet and swing and hope you don't foul or get out of the way because there is no pause button to stop that ball from heading your way. It's gonna happen and after a very difficult few months of not only dodging the ball, but getting hit by it, I've decided to swing! So this is me swinging away.
I thought I had learned so much going to EAC and that I was ready for the real world....NOT! These last six months have been a whirlwind of emotion and growth for me. First, living in Alaska for three months and then to move up to Provo right away was very difficult to me. I got homesick really easily and wished that I could rewind back to the good ole days in Joe Town where life was slow-paced and things made sense. But now I know that was a blessing. Now I can stand on my own feet. Sometimes you have to put yourself in difficult, new, and sometimes awkward situations to find out more about yourself. And boy have I learned a lot!
Anyways that's the reader's digest recap of the last few months of my life. Not too intriguing, but it's my life and swinging away :) I might strike out, but at least I tried.
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