Sunday, January 16, 2011

"I. am. Job."

So if you're friends with me on facebook, or a roommate, member of my family or basically haven't been living in a cave for the last few days you probably already heard... I GOT A JOB!!!!!

This really has been an emotional roller coaster for me all week long and I am so excited it ended gloriously! I had two second interviews this week and was offered both positions. I'm so very grateful for both those opportunities and for the option I was given to decide which was a better fit for me, even though it was really hard to tell the first job offer I would be taking the other position instead. It would seem that Holly's life is looking up finally ladies and gentlemen!

There was a downside to this decision, as there is to most, there will no longer be any summer seasonal jobs to Alaska *SOBS* (seriously...I cried). I guess this is life's way of saying okay Holly it's time for a grown-up job. You see I won't be able to go to Alaska because I had to give my new job at least a one year commitment. In the interview, as I told them yes that I'd have no problem with that, I freaked out a little. What about my job in Alaska? Well I guess it's time to move on. Alaska will always have a huge chunk of my heart. And even though I will consider those to be for now and forever to be the best two summers of my life, I'm intrigued with what the future might hold. 

It's really weird for me to think that things are actually getting better, that I'm actually getting back on my feet again. That I'll be going back to school and finally finishing my degree and well just getting my life back.

It's even more weird to think that I'm going to be living somewhere for longer than a few months. The past year has seemed so nomad-like. I guess you could say, that I worry I will get bored with the daily routine of life and want to flee to another place. I've been bitten by the travel bug and sometimes it's hard to resist the urge to get out and leave. Sometimes I feel like I could live the life of the character Vianne, in the movie "Chocolat", played by the lovely Juliette Binoche. You know how she travels whenever the wind blows. I think I could do that. But my life isn't that exciting or romantic. Not to mention, I don't know secret chocolate-making recipes either and could never make it as a mysterious chocolatier ...alas I am a failure. Maybe I'll have to try this staying in one place thing for awhile.

p.s.--- If you can name what movie I am quoting in the title of this post, you'll win a prize! (Not really, I'll just think you're really cool.)

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Without A Face

"If you just realized what I just realized...then we'd be perfect for each other and we'll never find another..."

Now under any other circumstances these words and this song would just melt  my heart and you would always see me with a smile on my face, however this morning as the words blasted in my ear at 6:00 AM coming from my alarm...they did not sound so romantic. Although I must add it is a much better choice for alarm song than "Crazy Train" (You can just imagine my surprise every morning lol).

So anyways, I "willfully" got out of bed this morning at *coughs* 6:30 AM *coughs* (sue me, I snooze like the rest of America), and went straight for the restroom as do so many of us in the morning. As I finished my "bidness" I was washing my hands and was greeted by something face. Okay, that sounds really pessimistic, what I mean to say is, my ugly albino face. I freaked. I had no makeup on and I was supposed to go running this morning!!

Now, most of you are probably thinking...uh hello crazy lady looking in the mirror freaking out, you're going running, you don't need to put any makeup on. Now if you know me...and especially if you know my face, you know that uh yeah I DO!!! Now don't think I'm gonna get all "real" with the blogging world and post a pic of my makeup-less your dreams, rather your nightmares. Just believe me when I say, it's different and not for the light-hearted to experience without adult supervision.

So I put on some eyebrows and some mascara ( I have eyebrows just fyi...I mean I colored them in.), and I started to stretch and get ready for the "exciting" run that would befall me shortly. As I was stretching, I began to think about my face (haha okay that sounded weird), and how I always have to have makeup on before people can see me. I feel like the only person who truly understands my pain and embarrassment would be my big sister (sorry I just outed you everyone knows about your albino face too lol). See, it's not like we look horrible without makeup, we just look different. I just feel more comfortable in makeup and always have. I love to wear it, I love to study it, I love to put it on other people....I just love it!!! It's like the woman's adult version of coloring books but for your FACE!!!!! It's great! haha People may think I'm weird but that's just how I am.

There will be no revelation at the end of this post saying, "So I decided to go without makeup this week", or "I decided, who cares, I love my albino face and pale blond features"...nope there surely won't be. The truth is, I don't love my albino I love my bright blue eyes though?...yes! Do I love my not huge, but pretty big luscious red lips?...yes! Do I love that I have finally mastered the shape of my man brows and that even though sometimes it takes ten years to color them into perfection I simply have to do it and it's worth it?...YES!!! So see, don't feel bad for the girl who's imprisoned by her makeup. She'll be alright. Now, dealing with water and waterproof makeup...well that's another story for another day. Peace.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Back in the Game

I'm back in the game, well the blog posting game that is. It's been so very long since I've posted something on this ole thing. I feel like as I write this, old moths and dust are flying away from it (metaphorically of course) because it's been so long since it's been touched.

First let me catch anyone who actually happens to read this up on what's going on with my crazy/boring life. Probably most of you that do read it already know but oh well. So basically after my surgery I stayed home until the summer where I went to Alaska again for a second season of work, had a BLAST as usual, came home, traveled around from place to place looking for where to begin life again and stumbled back into Utah. This was definitely a hard choice for me. I know this is where I'm supposed to be, but it's still hard at times because I feel like I'm having to face failure. See, last time I was here, I failed a class (something that has never happened to me), left school, didn't take care of my health problems and basically had to be babied (I don't even know if that's a word) by my parents back into reality.

Coming back here would be facing my past and moving forward and I just wasn't sure if I was ready for that. Well Heavenly Father knew better. After much and I mean much obvious signs to move to Utah I got up the gumption to do it and everything fell into place and well here I am. Right now I am looking for a job and just pretty much waiting for the Fall to roll back around so I can go back to school. I'm planning on double majoring in Theatre (because I simply can't breathe without it) and Advertising.

Hopefully all goes well, but if I've learned anything over the course of this horrid year of 2010 it's that change comes whether you like it or not and you just have to accept it and move on. Everything happens for a reason. I'm just ever so happy that 2010 is over. I can't wait for 2011 to really start kicking it in gear! It's going to be CLASSY 2011!! I'm so excited! Anyways fingers crossed that one of the many job interviews that I had will work out and I'll get a job soon. Peace out for now. Word G Money!